stuck in the past

so.. has there ever been a part of your life where the past seems to be way better than the present.. and you are constantly looking back and comparing everything.. well folks that is my life right now.
No better way to describe it than Stuck in the past.  I know I will get lost and swept aside if I don't let go and move on from my everyday life of the 10 months I spent in Europe and the amazing journey that I was able to take.. where as here I am a loner in my old world.  Yes I have friends and yes they want to hang out.. and I try.. but I just don't fit. Which leads me to sitting in my room and starring at the computer.... waiting for professors to place hw on our D2L.... Wow what has my life come to..
I can officially say I am not that typical College student.. Don't get me wrong I love having class canceled as much as the next.. but I need to have something to do.. What does my day normally consist of:
1- waking up eating breakfast
2- checking mail and facebook - yes there is an addiction there - it almost comes with the title student
3- work or class depending on which comes first
4- Work out
5- dinner
6- Hw....
7- sometimes basketball.. otherwise.. more hw and then watching tv.. and prolly more facebook
8- oh yea skype


sooo..... without hw.. its pretty open day and I get well bored.. yes I do have a job... so I dont always sit on my butt

I guess this problem of mine of looking at the past and comparing it to the future has to stop.. because no two seconds area exactly the same.. so therefore there is no way that two years can be the same... The people can be the same.. but the interactions and experiences they will ALWAYS change it is INEVITABLE>>>
Well heres to Inevitablity...:)
Time to stop feeling sorry for myself.. - granted it won't happen over night.. but I just gotta realize what i can and can't do and right now.. the only thing to do is to Know that the past is the past - as great as it is and the present/future.. are yet to come and I can make the best of them :D
Bring it on!

<3 Ris

change

so.. I decided I will only write in German when I feel the urge.. I have been way to preoccupied with everything else in my life to be able to sit down and write in German at this moment in time. 

I have absolutely no idea what this blog is going to be about.. or if anyone looks at it.. so if someone does read this blog of mine do you have any suggestions to which you would like to read about? 

Well back to studying.. ... again..

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dinge

Kann jemand weiss alles?  Ich denke nicht, aber es wuerde Prima sein!     Ich wunsche dass ich in dem Zukunft sehen kann, aber ich weiss das ist nicht moeglich.
Wenn ich in der Zukunft sehen kann, sehe ich was meine beziehung mit meinem freund ist und dann ich der richtige antwort zu ihn geben kann.
Liebe ist sehr kompliziert.  Ich wunsche dass es mehr einfach war.   

- Es ist schwerig, Emotionen in einer fremden Sprache zu erklaeren. 

Ja dass ist alles.....
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Die erste

so leute,
Heute habe ich eine Idee, dass ich nur auf Deutsch schreiben muss.  Ich weiß dass ich viele Fehler zu machen, aber ich will versuchen.  Wenn ich nicht auf Deutsch schreiben kann, dann schreibe ich es auf Englisch.

Ich wunsche alle ein gute nacht!
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